Sunday, February 14, 2016

The storyteller 2


Where do all the stories come from asked the children often while she was in the middle of her storytelling. Every time she was asked  she gave the same answer with a gentle smile. As if telling a secret she whispered to them 'From the silence...'. The children amazed would stay silent for a while. Amazed, intrigued, suspicious they would listen to the nothingness, shushing each other seriously, with only breaths of excitement accompanying them and every each time a chuckle or an angry opposition broke the silence.'Lady' they objected 'you are making them up!' . She just continued smiling and claimed maybe the silence liked her a lot more, and she was the only one that could hear it. The children never believed her, she didn't mind...she continued to tell her unfinished the story and the children as being children soon forgot the whole conversation about where the stories came.


As she rested her weary head each night he would come, in silence, whispering her name...'White' he would call her, 'Angel'...and he was 'Red'....'Drake'. He was a handful really, her friend, her dearest secret. He was the reason she told stories, for it seemed they calmed him down and heighten his mood. As for here his presence alone could enlighten her lonely existence. If she was late he wondered where she had been, if he wasn't around she started to worry herself sick. He was her soulmate, her companion, her one true love. 



They would meet in secret, and talk about everything they encountered. He had great knowledge of spells and books and such, she on the other hand knew of many foreign lands. As they completed each other more and more everyday their stories got entwined to each other as it was pretold. 


To be continued...

Saturday, February 13, 2016

Happy Ferrris Wheel Day


I hope one day me and my loved one get to spend some time in a city with a certain Ferris wheel and have a drink enjoying the view...




Hope we won't be scared of heights :)



Happy Ferris Wheel Day...❤️


Thursday, February 11, 2016

What is love?

What is love indeed?...
 

Once upon a time there was a cheerful story teller, wandering from town to town, helping others where she thought she was needed. Considering herself a caregiver, she always tried to be as sunny as she can and tried to pull the weight of people's shoulders with  just her smile and laughter. She knew that people suffered actually more than they cared to show and that having a positive person around always helped. 

After one of her many journeys she came upon a town, where people were living a mediocre life. No one suffered but no one was content with their income either. Barely making ends meet every month, they managed to survive. Even though they weren't the richest, they welcomed her and gave her a place to rest her head. She helped here and there and started doing what she did best. She tought little ones, she nursed, at some point she even worked as a translator. Despite being warm hearted as she is, she kept living a private life, for those many journeys and the people she encountered made her realise that people weren't always trustable and nice. Retreating to her chambers whenever she could and enjoyed her solitude.

To be continued... 

Tuesday, February 9, 2016

Precious moments

She woke up in a slight panic right after midnight,  thinking the morning has come already. It was warm in her bed, still she knew she had to get up and put on her pj's. She shrugged, staring blank to the closed tv and the tidy room and forced herself to get out of the comfiness, eyes half open, yawning.


Still confused, she thought maybe it was all a dream, looked around and saw yesterday's opera flyer on her messy desk. A happy smile found its way on her sleepy face, no it definitely wasn't. She still remembered that feeling in her stomach, the butterflies, the excitement, that blissful feeling surrounding her whole being rendering her speechless, which if you knew her is a rare occasion indeed, those precious moments and him.


She had been so anxious, waiting nervously, excited. With a million questions lingering in her mind yet eager to overcome her fear, she had tried to keep calm. The moment he came into sight her heart clenched in her chest, what to do, what to say all flew away from her head. Everything lost its importance all of a sudden. The fear melted away, sorrow disappeared and as it is said in the holy books 'then there was light'...all she could do was smile. They both did, in fact they didn't do anything else but smile holding hands, chuckling, giving butterfly kisses, and staring at each other as if they were the most precious beings on earth...it as simply heavenly...



She remembered him biting his lower lip, the softness of his hand, his voice and that smile...that smile was the reason Paris abducted Helen and waged a war...that smile could have been the reason one still believes in magic, that smile could get a man dig a hole in a mountain or travel through deserts...refreshing, heartwarming, soft, tantalising, mesmerising, simply wonderful and it was hers to love, watch and admire...he was hers...if that wasn't proof enough of a miracle nothing else would be she thought to herself. 

She was happy, and for this time being she allowed herself to be. With her memories still fresh and vivid, she went off to bed again with that blissful feeling. As she closed her eyes a memory of a hug embraced her and she murmured 'goodnight dearest, let your dreams be filled with joy'...



Monday, February 8, 2016

Tick tock goes the clock

Woke up early today, even the sun wasn't up yet. Like a child on Christmas morning, I couldn't go back to sleep so I laid back in bed, perfectly still and waited...

I didn't hurry up this morning, took my time in everything. Made my breakfast calmly, stepped out of the the house late, got caught in the traffic. Arrived 40 minutes late, can you imagine. Nothing happened. The world kept spinning, and I kept to myself. 

Since this morning a machine broke down, my coworkers complain, and countless stupid meaningless things continue happening, misfortunes some might say. I call them daily life. I don't mind really. Today is my day of 'I don't care' for I have something more important than them and nobody has to know but me...

Sunday, February 7, 2016

By your side

Waiting for my sunshine, my bright dawn...will fate be kind and grant us many happy meetings...

For far too long I was in the dark alone...

Praying...hoping...for my light to return...

For by your side is where I belong...




Lazy Sundays


Good morning from a lazy sunday...
May the hours fly by
On this sunny day...

Saturday, February 6, 2016

Left the daisies alone

A birthday party, smiling faces everywhere. Drinks, food of every kind, in the background the band plays 'Lovesong- the Cure' ( my favourite love song)  , music too loud, my eyes grew weary, a cake gets sliced down, wishes made, hands clapped, music so loud...there is a bouquet of daisies on the table for the birthday girl.
(There was a heart shaped foam in my ice tea) 

I looked at them thinking of you, not that you remind me of one, no, but because I thought about the endless daisy petals i shed because of me,  in pursuit of finding the silliest answer to a silly question. Am I loved? 
I thought I don't need to torture daisies anymore, I already know that you do. 
All the daisies are grateful, me too...

Friday, February 5, 2016

Foggy day


Good morning from a foggy day ;)

Sneezy and lazy afternoons

All day I had been wandering around, doing boring stuff, when all I wanted to do was to relax in a coach with a cup of earl grey tea in my hands, reading what my favourite writer had written, I mean you. 

After all I think I deserved a few days of peace, especially when I think about the mental and emotional anguish I had been suffering from. Now as I have a little free time I found myself two chairs and sat down, with my legs spread to the second  chair my back leaning towards the window where you like standing and making me laugh. It is freezing in this room. Memories keep rushing back, what once was a few drops from a tiny hole turned into a stream from a dam falling apart. How long has it been since we stood side by side, days, seconds, years...

Do you remember when I was sick and you put relaxing music on to make me calm down. Or when we bursted into laughter from stupid scenes from stupid movies I recall you sharing your noodles with me, or the happy face you made when you saw your cup of coffee in my hand which I made for you. Do you remember every each detail as I do?
Today I allowed myself to dream a little. Nothing too detailed, just a couch,  maybe a blanket (for me of course, you never need one) you and me. We might just sit together, or watch something or eat or drink or talk or sleep or snore I don't care. I only want to spend time together that's all. 

Did I mention that I am an awfully quiet person. Could sit and stay quiet for hours minding my own business. I am not a cat person, I am a two legged cat. I like comfy places, good company, good food. I don't let anyone near me unless I really want to. With you I never had the chance. Never could hold you back, even when you made me mad. Never wanted to anyway.  How can you block a part of you, it's impossible. See that's what I think of you. You are a part of me since you stepped into my life , and I have no complaints. Thank you for your presence, you made me whole...

If I survive this flu I could write some more, yours truly...
Sneezy

Wednesday, February 3, 2016

About dragons...

Today as I was looking for photos for the blog  I came upon these. Dragons were always a symbol for me, my most sacred creature...I loved their strength, their wisdom, their power. For me they were beautiful, perfect beings...they were free, untouched by time, magical...they represented what I wanted to be...

It is not that surprising that I fell in love with one...these are for him...


A part of him is like a child, adorable, playful, curious...a handful he is, a little bit spoiled, a little bit naughty...may he never change :)


When I stand by him it feels as if I could conquer anything, the world lays beneath my feet...


His passion priceless, his presence magical...he keeps surprising me...


He gives me a reason to dream...

The venom song



Venom venom everywhere
Venom venom I don't care
Lazy anaconda bites like a cobra
I don't want to play this game
Go smile some else where
I am so bored and tired of you
I am talking about her, you know who
First she smiles, acts terribly nice
Then before you know it you end up in vice
Evil to the core
Still is as she was before
I run away from one
Then bump into the other
Oh tell me how I shouldn't bother
Windows are empty
So is my life
No one to laugh with
No one to smile
Caught between sisters fight
And you are still out of sight
Come back and come back soon
Only word I can think of  that rhymed was unfortunately  tune ;)
Would you have preferred I wonder another word, maybe swoon?
And yes,  I like to send kisses to you through the moon


Tuesday, February 2, 2016

On thin ice


Who shall be guarding the castle the old Queen asked
The peasents are scattered is what I replied  
One intends to leave so he has spoken
With pain in the groin from stones unbroken
One is abducted by the city of mosques
Ill her son is, 'can't come yet' she says
Yet two are left, remained loyal and true
With two guardians who don't know what to do 
The one who does not speak
Helps the passing of the death
The one who never frowns
Runs all day all around 
The serpent slithers with her open mouth
With every sweet word she utters poison spills out
The prude one works like she has never worked for sure
One keeps wondering does she appreciate us now 
A little more than before
Then there is me 
The poor errand girl 
A guardian but not yet a senior 
Works as a slave but gains no honour 
The keeper of the cave 
Where the half dead stay alive
Goes by his own business 
Doesn't care what goes around 
Or who in the mess does drown
So I made a list of the castle guards
Can't say that is fair or equal nor it is wise
It's all I can do I tell you my dear milord
I tried so hard but I am tired and bored
To speak the truth
I don't care about nothing at all
Except for someone, someone I adore 
Who will return in a few days from a long, lost road

Thin ice thaws when the sun starts rising 
What is lost will return
I can see from the horizon

Monday, February 1, 2016

So in love


This has always been one of my favorite songs, but until now I didn't quite realise what it was actually trying to tell...well now I know...every each word of it makes sense now...it's unconditional love...



Strange dear, but true dear,
When I'm close to you, dear,
The stars fill the sky,
So in love with you am I.
Even without you,
My arms fold about you,
You know darling why,
So in love with you am I.
In love with the night mysterious,
The night when you first were there,
In love with my joy delirious,
When I knew that you could care,
So taunt me, and hurt me,
Deceive me, desert me,
I'm yours, till I die.....
So in love.... So in love....
So in love with you, my love... am I....

Walls don't talk much, did you notice?

Sitting all alone in the room, where we once sat together. Memories of laughters shared, quarrels and joyful moments...oh how I miss them all. 
Listening to an İtalian waltz, your presence lingers all around. It feels as you described before, like you are standing right behind me, smiling. 
Sometimes İ am so glad that walls can't talk, so many secrets they keep hidden. 


Sunday, January 31, 2016

Want to see you

I really need to see you
Just to know that you are real
Time is passing so slowly 
You are all I need to heal

Saturday, January 30, 2016

Memories return

Sleep comes and sleep goes
All my thoughts are of yours
Tossing and turning
Thinking and smiling
Then thinking some more
You are what I dream of
Nightmares all gone
Bruised and battered
Memories keep washing ashore
Still drawing breath
As beautiful as before
I'm slowly picking up pieces
Of my shattered soul
Yet knowing soon I will
Once again become whole

No one outside

A window, open curtains, empty room, obligations, chores, 
boring conversations, 
more chores, 
telephones ring, 
doors open, doors close, 
time passes, 
my mind has wandered of
Searching for my heart
Who rests by your side
The sun is up but there is no light
No glances to share
Nothing to smile for  
The benchs unoccupied
Everyone's here
But I don't care
Miss you so much
I look outside
There's no one there
My heart is yours
My minds a mess
There's no way one can love you anymore 
Or think of you any less






Friday, January 29, 2016

On the edge



For the first time in months I am able to breath.
Still on the edge, still a bit scared
Was it a dream, will it all fade?
Two hours of sleep yet wide awake
Darkness crawls slowly back to it's den
Yet will I ever be my former self again?

Thursday, January 28, 2016