sAyIkLaMaLaR

...why can I feel your presence this strong...eventhough we never met before...eventhough you're long gone...you were never there at all...not now....never before...

...there is a fire within me, consuming my soul, hidden but not lost...waiting for a chance to burn you up...

...once...pure white was I...it was a long time ago it seems...now that I'm torn into shreds...and forgot what it felt like to be...me...must start everything over...once again...I feel blank now...and yet still white...once more...

...once...pure white was I...it was a long time ago it seems...now that I'm torn into shreds...and forgot what it felt like to be...me...must start everything over...once again

...I lost my heart...somewhere...to someone...I can not remember anymore...and then...a hole formed in my chest...that's when I became a 'Hollow'...I guess...

...maybe I had nothing more to say...maybe I didn't have to...who knows...

...loving somebody is easy, sometimes all it takes is a moment ... but ... leaving someone you love behind ... that's a whole different story ...

...there is more to life than this...the trick is just being able to see it...
I missed my wings,my teeth.I missed the fire I spit.I missed the wind beneath my feet.I missed everything.I forgot what it was to fly,to be a dragon 1 more time

...there is never a happily ever after, for there is no end...

...One by one white rose petals scatter all over time,the two of us, love exists for eternity...there is never a happily ever after, for there is no end....

...tired as hell...confused...yet determined...different...we shall see...just wait a little longer...patience...please...

...nothing changes the way I feel...and I'm afraid nothing will...it scares me sometimes...

Inside I'm a child who can't mend a broken wing, outside I am...Now that I'm standing on my own,I'll remember the way that you changed me,I'll remember!

Is love a fancy, or a feeling? No.'Tis not a blossom shed as soon as youth,Drops from the stem of life--for it will grow,In barren regions, where no waters flow

...Mutluluk her ne kadar gelip geçici de olsa, bir an için bile 'Ben mutluyum veya mutluydum' diyebilmek ne güzel... :D

'Everything about you,your smile,your anger...keeps me walking forward.If u just look up where the clouds start to break,I think u know what I mean...

'I am Viola of The Twelfth Night, lost in a role which is not my own,loving quietly, hiding my true identity from everyone :)'

...it is as if I'm lost in an unknown dimension where no one understands me except the other travellers lost just like me,just how cool is that!...

...it is as if I'm lost in an unknown dimension where no one understands me except the other travellers lost just like me, it’s really annoying & frustrating…

There’s no way to describe what I feel, a restlessness has invaded my soul and doesn’t let go!

Maybe there's nothing more to say and in a funny way I'm calm. Because the power is not mine
I'm just gonna let it fly...

'When the white rose petals scatter one by one, our love will become everlasting...'

SOMEBODY...ANYBODY... WAKE ME UP!

Bu aralar en çok istediğim üç şey ha , hımmmm zor gibi biraz ama deniycem :)

1. Placebo konserine gitmek

2. Yeni bir Mp3 player

3. Bir Amerika yolculuğu/ Bir piyano/ Arkadaşlarımla olmak

Tamam dört-beş tane oldu ama yer zaman ve ruh halimin dalgalanmasına göre değişiyor ne yapayım yani :)

Esasında bu aralar en çok kendimi bulmayı istiyorum ama yeni baştan, yepyeni bi şekilde...Ceren kimdi, ne işterdi, ne severdi, nelerden zevk alırdı, neye üzülürdü...Bunlar son zamanlarda kendime sormayı ihmal etmiş olduğum sorular maalesef, utanarak itiraf ediyorum! :)

O zaman baştan dizelim;

1.Kendimi geri bulmayı

2.Hayattan ne beklediğimi bulabilmeyi

3.Bu arayışın verimli geçmesini

Şimdi maddi ve manevi dizilimlerimiz yaptıktan sonra ne aşamadayım ona değineyim;

Placebo konser bileti-Alındı, uçak biletleri ayarlandı! Molkooo bekle beni ,seni yakından göreceğim günü iple çekiyorum :)

Yeni mp3 player- halen namevcut olsun altyapı çalışmaları devam ediyor.

Arkadaşlarla görüşülüyor, piyano aranıyor,amerika gezisi hala biraz uzak bi hayal :(

Kendimi biraz buldum gibi, en azından daha huzurlu olduğuma göre işler yolunda galiba :)

Ne istediğimden çok da emin değilim, ama acelem yok ;)

Verimlilik raporu hazırlamak gibi bir derdim yok, gönül eyliyorum bi arkadaşımın dediği gibi :)

Öyle işte Umay'cım. Sanırım benden bu kadar İ;)

C u around :)

THE DRAGON'S SONG

I missed my wings
I missed my teeth
I missed the fire I had spit
I missed the wind beneath my feet
I missed each and everything
I forgot what it was to fly
To be a dragon once again
To rule the skies once again
To look in to your eyes
And speak the words
I wished to hide
There is no freedom in the land
Which we’re bound so unwillingly
There is no hope for those who lie
Who cheat and run all their lives
The only thing that matters most
Is to know that you’re lost
When you’re lost
So give me back my wings again
My fangs,my fire, my scales, my teeth
Break the bonds that held me back
Give me the courage that I lack
Give me some time
Can’t catch up fast
And when time goes by
And youth starts to slip away
Look at the skies my love
When regret fills your heart some day
Look at the stars which shine so bright
The lonely darkness beneath we hide
One day my love
One happy day
You’ll see me soaring up there
Once again
With wings of silver
And the shine of day
Then there will be
Nothing more I need to say


23.Mart.2009

19.33 Pazartesi